I really don’t know what’s your plan for me Dear Lord..
Whatever the plan is, I know it’s good. Because in you, I do believe.
And in my future life, I want a soul mate. I don’t care whether I’ll be
practicing law or not. It doesn’t matter to me. As long as I have a happy,
satisfying life around the people I love.
I wish Ummi a long
life. Long enough to be there on kakak’s wedding, and mine too. Long enough to watch
her grandchildren circling her, to listen to her stories, or to just kiss her
on the cheeks. I wish Ummi health. So that she can prepare herself to you, God.
And so that she can see the world. Each and every part of the world. And to see
her smile, till her very last breath.
I wish my siblings a prosperous life too. Happily standing
beside the people they love. Married, and having lots and lots of beautiful
kids. And we would be having family
gatherings, often. Laugh together. Eat together. And cherish each other’s
presence. My big brothers, I know they’d be good husbands, and perhaps good
fathers too. And my kakak, I know she’ll be the most caring and supportive wife
to her husband. And most importantly, no matter what happens, we will never
leave Ummi alone. Because, we love her.
And as for me, I wish I’d find my soul mate, one day. He’d
be my bestfriend, my guardian angel, my protector, my life. The one who will
never leave me. The one who will love me when I’m feeling good, or bad, happy,
or sad, in good health or in illness, to hold my hands and always say that
things would be okay. And just to hug me close when I’m feeling all down. No
no. Not just when I’m feeling all down. But to hug me each and every single time
he can. Before I go to sleep, when I wake up, when I’m sleeping, when I’m
watching the tv, when I’m putting on lotion, when I’m cooking, whenever and
wherever he can. Because to me, a hug is the most soothing gesture one could
give to another. No words. Just a hug. And I know that I’d be safe in his arms.
A husband whom I will care for and devote my whole life to. A husband who
understands me more than I understand myself, cares for me, and only have me in
his life. Possessive I am. I know.
Ahhhh… Life.. I know that life isn’t a fairytale. We often
don’t get what we want. It’s His will. He narrates our story. But it doesn’t
mean we can’t be a co-writer. Though I don’t know what awaits for me in the
future, but what I do know is, it would be something He knows I can handle. And
I will never stop praying to Him, asking for all the good things I want in
life. And even if I don’t get it, I understand that there will be other things that are meant for
me, other things that are written for me. Because He knows best.
To love, and to be loved are the best gifts one could ever
wish for in life.