TAT NENAS

Tat Nenas. 

Catchy kan nama dia? Ni lah tajuk teater kolej aku:

Halusinasi, Kolej Kediaman Kelima, Universiti Malaya.

Time aku first baca skrip ni, aku macam..Nervous. Sebab aku tak reti berlakon, tak pernah pon menceburkan diri dalam bidang lakonan, tapi niat di hati ingin berlakon, nak cuba, sebab aku minat. Jadi nervous because watak dalam cerita ni ada 4 je: 

Bijou (watak utama), Juwita, Pak Leh, and Awan.

So you know, I can be very insecure with myself sebab rasa tak mampu nak buat. Time sebelum casting tu, dah macam ayam berak kapur. Takut gila. Yelah, nak compare dengan my competitors, rasa macam tak layak dan kerdil je. Honestly. Time casting tu, I just did what I thought was right. Yelah, I know nothing about theater. So, main bedal jelah cerita dia. And suprisingly, I got one of the female roles dalam cerita ni. Watak tu nama dia Juwita. Watak ni aku faham sebab sedikit sebanyak watak ni macam aku jugak. But a lil bit different in certain ways. Hah kelas u'ollls. I didn't try out for watak Bijou sebab sumpah tak faham watak dia ni. So, passsssssssss. 

Speaking of watak Juwita ni, banyak jugak scene yang awkward, and seductive sikit.  And time show tu, audience went 'wooooo, eeeewwww, ughhhh,  aaaaaaa' jugak lah. =.='

Aku baru je join Halusinasi this year. And sumpah cakap, it's the best club that I have ever joined, so far. Menyesal sebab tak join since last year. Time first year dulu malu-malu, segan nak berlakon. Alah, sekarang pon sama je, still segan, still tak percaya pada diri, still tak berubah. Cuma, dapat kekuatan sikit bila ada orang yang lebih percaya dekat aku more than I believe in myself. So, rasa macam, let's just give it a try. And that is one of the best decisions I have ever made. Sebab Halusinasi ni macam one big family tao. All the seniors turun bagi support, seniors yang dah habis belajar pon bagi support, rasa macam, wow gila. 

And our Director adalah Abang Modee. He's damn awesome!!! Serious! Banyak gila yang dia ajar pasal teater and how to act. Dia cakap, kita act on the stage adalah untuk entertain people, jangan fikir untuk menunjuk nunjuk ke nak berlagak ke apa ke. And, before masuk scene, ingat kita dari mana supaya kita tahu mana halu tuju kita, tak menonong je masuk tak tahu apa and  merely blurting out the lines. Paling penting is to have fun while doing it, don't rush your lines, and just have fun. Energy level kena sentiasa tinggi, jangan sekali pun biar energy jatuh. Pernah this one time tengah rehearse, dia suruh kita orang stop, and dia susun 4 kerusi jarak jarak and dia suruh kita orang merangkak bawah kerusi tu sambil sebut lines. God! It was damn tiring and rasa nak give up je. Tangan lebam lebam, bengkak bengkak bagai. Dia suruh kita orang merangkak bawah kerusi sambil sebut lines sebab nak suruh kita orang bagi energy time cakap lines tu. Fuhhhh. Kenangan betul. =.=' And macam macam lagi dia ajar. Aku yang daripada kayu gila berlakon jadi lembut sikit. 

Assitant Director pulak Popo. He's very supportive and he trusts me more than I trust myself. When I have doubts he'd say "I believe in you. You can do this." He gave all of us support, and push us to the very core. Sampai ada this one time I just feel like giving up sebab so many things happened at one time. But he pulls us together. Ensure that our show runs smoothly and everything. And susah nak cari orang yang support our interest, yang hina yang kutuk memang ramai. Yang ignore, tak bagi kata kata semangat langsung pun ada.Though I personally went against him so many times, and macam macam lah. Sorry Popo.

GP pulak Music Director. Ni lagi sorang yang selalu bagi semangat. Because my scenes banyak kena nyanyi. And I never hit the right note. NEVER. Sumpah down gila sampai stress nak mati. Ada this one point, I care more on my singing rather than my acting. But he cakap, "as long as you masuk betul, tak lari tempo, it's fine. Ni pertandingan teater, bukan pertandingan nyanyian. So, jangan risau sangat."

But frankly speaking, I think a lot about the singing part. Dah lah one day before the show, I lost my voice. HILANG SUARA! Waktu tu dah freak out gila dah. Confidence was at it's lowest point. Suara dah macam bapuk, pakai wig and make up tebal menyerupai seorang bapuk, so memang cukup pakej seorang bapuk. Sumpah down. Stress. Tak tahu nak handle macam mana. GP bagi semangat, then Shuk (Shukri nama sebenar) tarik pi tepi one hour before 'the' show and cakap I look miserable. And he cakap, jangan sebab my worries on the singing part, jeopardize my entire performance. And I was like.. And he cakap few more things which really encouraged me. Thanks Shuk, thanks GP.

But still, I sang only one song. Sepatutnya dua lagu, but sebab tak mampu, so Din (yang memegang watak Awan) kena nyanyi lagu tu. Thank you Din. :) Same goes to Aloi (yang memgang watak Pak Leh). Banyak bagi support and dorongan and orang yang paling aku rasa selesa with dalam Halusinasi. Husna (yang memegang watak Bijou) whose acting was superb, awesome hebat gila etc. I'm praying hard that you'd be nominated as one of the best actresses darling. You were so good! And to all the arca's; Emma, Qiela, Manis and Edwin, thanks for making the show interesting and for adding flavours to it. You guys were good  too! :)

And to the whole entire team, thanks for the bitter sweet experience. I honestly can't wait for next year's Karviter. Berlakon atau tidak bergantung pada nasib. Kalau orang still percaya pada diri ini, and nampak my capabilities, and terpilih, mungkin akan berlakon. If not, tak lah, tak ada rezeki. :) And now, I really miss my Halus family. :(

So that's all for now.  Papai!