Change and Camaraderie!

Hello people! Yesh yesh. My blog has a new image! How do you like it? Hewhewhew! You know you can't separate me with colours right? So tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! My blog is sho sho colourful! :D Me likey!

Guys, I just wanna ask. Have you ever feel like not wanting to go to class? Just feel like chilling, golek-goleking, malas-malasing, and baring-baringing at your room. Doing nothing, actually. Well maybe 9Gaging, Youtubing, Facebooking, Twittering, Blogging, Stalking, Chatting and all? Guess technology is not good for me, is it? That's what I've been doing this week. I didn't go to class these past 3 days. Well, since last week actually. I have my own issues and problems. But my main reason is, I don't feel like going. My studies are all down in the drain now. So much of a DL kan?? Serious shit. I just hangout in my room, all by myself. How interesting! whooopyyydoooo!!! :D But, bila fikir balik, I think I do need time on my own.. Just chilling..relaxing..wasting time.. Do nothing. Have you ever tried that before? You know what, it's a damn good therapy for me. I think Uyaina really needs a time on her own.

On the other hand, going to my main reason for this entry. I wanna introduce you to my UM friends ( a lil bit contrary to my first 2 paragraphs eh?). Yup2! For me, one of the strong reasons that keeps me strong to stay in UM and continue reading law (selain Ummi), is because of them. I don't think I will ever survive if these peeps are not around. They are like a family to me. That's how much these gals and guys mean to me. *i dah puji, belanja i aiskem pon cukup* Eheh. Speaking of which, they are the ones who helped me to sign for my attendance.. Took the proforma for me. Listen to my endless, miserable story. *sebak hati mak* Lepak-lepak. Makan sama sama. Main rugby sama sama. ( sumpah best gyle! ) Main futsal sama sama. Gelak sama sama sama sama. Shopping together, Stalking the lecturers ( i know righttttt :P ), bitching (kot), and macam macam lah! Just so you know how cool these people are!
So friends, here's to all of you.

First up, is THE Aqmal Hakim Maula Meman (the Diva/ Drama King)

I tell you what. He is a head-turner. Kalau jalan dengan dia, semua perempuan pandang tak berkelip. Betul!! This guy has an instinct of a woman. He knows what we're (the girls) are talking about andddddddddddd... he syncs really fast! Though he's a lil bit touchy (ampun aqmal) but he's a damn good friend. I remember the day yang I kena kacau dengan orang pelik dekat Pink Corner, dia terus call I. *terharu* Tapi kena bebel lah lepas tu.hehe.

Next, Puteri Eleni Megat Osman (our momma!)

Yes, this is Puteri. SHE HAS A BRAIN OF A LORD! Lord Denning mungkin? I first met her time asasi dulu. First day of asasi actually. We thought we were given the same room. Tapi tengok2, opposite rooms! hehe. Back then, we were not close. If jumpa pon, just heys and hellos je. But now, I can say we're pretty close. hehe. She's damn smart, asasi dy both sems 4flats. I kalah dengan dy. And 1st sem for degree pon she beat me. Kalah tipis jugak. Damn she's a LORD! On top of all, she's different. She helped me when I'm at the lowest point of my life. Slapped me. And shouted at me. Yeah. She did all that. And still, I love her to bits.  Yes, she's my best friend! (because she knows too much) :p

Hanny Natasha ( the hopping hanny bunny)

Here's another best friend of mine. She's so pretty, naive, and the cutest and sweetest person I've ever known! Rasa nak gigit je! She's so pretty and is getting prettier with her bangs. Sumpah adorable! Padan lah Faris tak nak lekang. haha. :p Yesh yesh, she's taken. hehe. And, dia cakap ada melody. Mcam nie : kenapeeeeee keluaaarrr tak ajak hannyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

 HAHAHA. Sumpah comel gyle! :P

Nabilah Jasmine a.k.a Abi babyyyyyyy

 Ok. She's a diva. hehe. Just look at her rocking that oh-so-beautiful green dress. Yup. She's lovely. Though sometimes she's a little bit of loco (ampun Abi!) But that's what makes her different. Who walks in a store and talks to the salesperson as if they have been friends for ages? Haha. And she reminds me so much of Queen Latifah. Very funny!!! :D And Abi nie sangat lah motherly. Boleh rasa selamat and protected whenever she's around. :) You know you can talk to me right babe? Though I'm not good in giving out advices, but I'm a good listener.

Saiyidah Nasuha Syuhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa (the drop-dead-gorgeous)

CANTIK. That's the one word that can best describe her. Syuha nie mix Germany, her mother's side. No wonder la where she got the looks. hehe. My God... My friends are all hotties! *jealous* And, if you want good and self motivation advise, go to her. She's freaking wise. And all her words make sense. It's like, talking to a Life Guru or something. And no, she's not taken. She's still single and available. Ehe *promote promote* And most importantly, I love her driving skills! Sumpah best! And don't you mess with her on the road. Otherwise, you'll see the middle finger comes flashing at you. :P

Seterusnya, Kris (the hot model-like), Aisya ( the hot petite mafia), and Winnie (the hot mama)

Aisya

Kris

Winn

 If you noticed, their first adjective sama, hot. Yup, they are! Hangout with them makes me feel insecure, and ugly. No kidding! But at the same time, rasa bangga sebab dikelilingi orang cantik. hehe. If dekat high school overseas, dyorang nie macam cheerleaders punya group laa.. :) They're all fun! Sumpah best lepak dengan dyorang. Ada je nak gelak and to joke around. hehe. Kris and Aisya are single 

 (stupid guys. If I were a guy, dah lama tanya dyorang nie bila boleh kapel.haha.)Winn is taken. My Goddd! Dia dengan bf dia sangat lah sweet! Sumpah jealous. grrr! :D

Last but certainly not least, Nadhirah yang comel n Hanie O (eh awakkkk) :D 

Nadhirah

Hanie O

Dyorang dua nie macam B1 and B2 (bananas in pyjamas) Inseparable. And line famous dyorang adalah:

1: Hello saudari!

2: Eh eh awak nie!

3: Ehh hello!

Semua buat nada Datin ok. haha. Sumpah jadi doe dyorang buat, especially Hanie. Haha.. Dah macam Datin betol dah nie. :B Hanie I baru kenal dah masok UM. Tapi boleh get along very well sebab dia sangat cool! :) And dia adalah one of the 9Gager yang agak kronik. Pernah 1 time nie, I texted her tanya dia dekat mana, and she replied apa tao?  

"In between your boobs! Me Gusta!!" =.=' 

Nadhirah pulak I dah kenal since asasi lagy. 1 kelas, 1 gang youallsssssss. Dulu ktorang selalu lah jugak gosip2 pasal budak2 asasi. haha. Nadhirah nie kuat gosip. Nampak je pendiam. (Ampun Nadhirah!) :)

So people, these are my girlfriends (except for Aqmal la). Tu je nak bagitahu. Entry nie pon tajuk dy camaraderie kan. So, I just want to hi light the importance of friends.  Jangan jadi kawan yang makan kawan. Makan makanan lah dey. Asal nak makan kawan. Yang my guyfriends mungkin lain entry. Mungkin lah.. If rajin. *mood malas*

Yup, I love these people. They are good people. And may God bless them with His guidance and shower them with health, wealth and happiness.

Pesanan penaja: Hidup jangan seorang diri. 

Camaraderie

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Hari ini saya ingin berbahasa baku pula. Bagaimana saudara dan saudari? Moga- moga sehat sejahtera hendak nya. Saya berdoa agar saudara dan saudari dilimpahi dengan kurnia dari-Nya.Dan selalu bergembira disamping keluarga yang sayang kan anda dan anda menyayangi mereka.

Adeh. Baru 3 line. Dah rase penat lidah menetaip. Ehehe. By the way, semalam sye tidur dengan Ummi!!! hehe.. Ummi dtg KL.. Tidur rumah Hala Anat. And I hugged her, and kissed her, and shared the blanky with her.. :) Since I can't come to her, she came to me! I LOVE YOU UMMI!!! You're the best!

So, whats' new eh? Ouh yeah! My performance night is just around the corner. NIE SUMPAH CUAK NAK MATI RASA NAK TERCABUT JANTUNG DAN DIBERI KEPADA JERUNG UNTUK DIMAKAN. Takot laah!!!!!!!! Preview is on the 9th. Preview pon dah rase cuak nak mati. Ini kan pulak THE night. Mahu terkencing rasanya nie. Sobsobsob. Cepat cepat! Tiup kan azam dan semangat dalam diri ini!!! Break a leg Uyaina!!!!

Semalam kitorang fitting baju. Baju tu oh-sangat-lah-cantik!! Tapi, before try tu, sye punya lah cuak... I have this weird phobia di mana sye berase takot if tak muat pakai baju yang orang bagi. So, semalam dengan berat hati nya, dan perasaan yang berdebar2, I tried it on. And PHEWWWWWWW! Nasib baek muat.. Kalau tak, sye potong lemak2 di badan nie.

On the other hand, just rasa terkilan and sedih.. Sebab Choreographer tak bagi pakai tudung.. And most probably, I'm gonna have to wear a wig. Sigh... And I understand if you don't wanna come.. Thanks anyway.. :)

And regarding my previous post, ade sambungan dy kot. Another 10 things about me perhaps. Let me discover about myself first. :) haha..

And and and... semalam I read this entry about 19 female bloggers yang paling cantik. OUH EM JIIII!!!! They are so prettyyyyy!!!! Macam barbie dolls. :)

Till then peeps. :)

10 things about me.

#1: I love cats! LOVE LOVE LOVE cats! I can speak catsuage( cats-language)

#2: I am annoying. If you know me, then you'll know how annoying I am. Serious shit. haha :p

#3: I have Mr.Totty. He's a turtle. My pet (soft toy). I cannot sleep without him. And yes, even if I'm married, I'll still sleep with my Mr.Totty, and my hubby of course. If Mr.Totty hilang, I will mogok tak nak makan tak nak tido, tak nak mandi!!!!!

#4: I love bright colours. Someone told me that I have symptom of a bipolar just because I love bright colours. And I have mood swings. Silly.

#5: I love perfumes. And one of my dreams is to release my own perfume( when I'm rich and famous, for some reason). Uyaina by Uyaina perhaps??

#6: I wish to have a yellow motorbike and ride like a man! (Konfem ummi pengsan knowing this)

#7: I'm straight. I don't date lesbos. Neither do I date Casanovas. 

#8: I love to shop. It's my therapy. But window shopping is not my thing. I become even more stressed out if window shopping je. (stress sbb tak dpt beli)

#9: I'm an easy lover. I don't ask things(materials) from you. I only ask you to love me. Simple.

#10: I can pole dance. In fact, I'm good at it. Shocking? Suprise suprise. 

I love you, baba...

Hey...
OK... I'm almost to tears right now.. I'm just so sad... :( Last night, I dreamed of my late father.. I haven't seen him in my dreams for quite a sometime, and last night, was a shock to me. The worst part is, I dreamed of him dying! Why? What does it mean???? I'm just so sad... I even cried in my sleep.. When I woke up, my eyes were drenched with tears. My pillow was wet. I sat on my bed, and recalled the dream and start crying again. In that dream, he met with an accident. And I saw it with my own eyes! Now tell me who wouldn't cry? Ouh God.. What is it that you want to tell me.?

I called Ummi this morning... And my eyes were filled with tears all over again. I miss her.. I couldn't imagine if Ummi leaves me too.. What would happen to me.? Who will love me the way she does? Fuck these thoughts. I hate them! But I can't stop thinking about them.. I don't want Ummi to leave me.. I want her to grow old and always be there for me.. I'm paranoid aren't I? I'm just afraid of losing.. Especially the people that I love.. I'm just too scared.

Sometimes I wonder... If my father is still around, I must have been his spoiled little princess, wouldn't I? Since I'm the youngest, he must have lavished me real bad. hehe.. And my brothers and sister would have been jealous of me.. Because baba loves me more! :) And I will hug him, and kiss him, and tell him all the stories, and ask him about guys, and ask him money to go shopping, he will see me growing up, telling me that I am beautiful, wipes away my tears every time I'm hurt, and he will be there on my graduation day, patting me on the back, hugs and kisses me on the cheek, telling me how lucky he is to have me as a daughter.. How sweet will it be? And he will be the one interviewing my boyfriend ( my husband-to-be), scare the hell out of him (haha), and he will be my wali, handing and entrusting me to the man I'm gonna spend my whole life with, be the coolest grandpa to my children.. And most importantly, be the greatest father in the whole wide world to me!


I wish I could meet him again... One last time... Like, meet him in person! Like Hala Anat, my aunt did. My grandmother has passed away long time ago.. Few years after that, my aunt went to Mecca for hajj. And she said she saw my grandmother and she was hugging my aunt! Though it was just for a brief few seconds, but it means the whole world to her! I wish I could experience the same! I want to see my father in person! Though I know it's almost impossible.. But, hoping won't do any harm, would it? I only have a photo of him.. And our family photo.. Only these two photos could remind me of how he looks.. How handsome he is. How my beloved father looks like. Though my memories with him could never be tarnished, but picturing him in my mind is quite vague. And I thank God because I have his photos to remind me of him.

To all my readers, I would ask a little something from you.. Please recite Al-Fatihah for my father.. And to those who still have a father, I am happy for you. And jealous.

Papai people..

Sedih.

Sumpah down gyle... Result terok nak mati. How am I supposed to tell my mom? She expects a lot from me. Sedih nye. I'm stupid.. I don't think I will survive law school. Law school is only for smart people. And I'm nowhere near. Sumpah down.

Really need a shoulder to cry on.. Anyone.? Anyone? Please... Anybody? :( 

Right.. I'm all alone.. Stuck in this room.  Talking to myself. Like you even care. Never mind.. I have promised to myself that I won't bother you.. I have troubled you enough. I'm sorry for being such nuisance all these while. Sorry.. 

I'll find another shoulder. The one that will never ignore.. Never leave me..

Hmm..

Recently....

Hello guys! How y'all been doing? Hope you guys are doing well, better than ever! I'm in Um right now.. Gotta come back early. Supposedly i have 3 full weeks to stay back and relax at home sweet home.. But, since i put up my name to join Feseni, so I have to come back two weeks earlier. Shoot. I know. There goes my holiday. But on the other hand, looking at the bright side of it, I'm collecting merits which  at the end of the day will benefit me. Yeah, it's like a freaking survivor competition already. In order to stay in, you gotta work. Lazy ass will be kicked out. As simple as that. And because of that, I'm joining many activities held by the college. I joined the hockey competition for SUKMUM( I also dont know what it stand for..so yeah ^^ ). I went for the interviews to become the host for College Annual Dinner ( which i got the spot. Yes!). And now, I'm joining the Gema Nusantara ( Malay dancing competition which I'm really fond of). So yeah. Hope these 3 main programs suffice. It's damn hard to balance between college and faculty. Well, that's the challenging part living in UM isn't it? Just suck it up or get sucked up.

So I went back home after the exam. I mean, after our PD trip. Our fun exciting relaxing PD trip. Speaking of which, I really can't forget! An insanely unforgettable experience. We were all like zombies, tired and mentally drained and physically lethargy due to our sleepless nights tucking our nose on the books in preparation for the exams. But still, our macho and hunk guys still have it in them, driving, setting up the bonfire, preparing for the barbecue, and finding the woods and sticks and other things that could be used to start the fire. While we the girls. drew and wrote on the sands, running and skipping along the beach, enjoyed the picturesque view of the sea swallowing the sun, savoured the perfect hues painted on the sky, and singing along as Syuha played the guitar. Cherishing the little little things.. :)

What? Not fair? What is fair in the first place? Haven't heard of the word before. LOL

So yeah, the night went perfectly. But yeah, since I'm a sleepyhead, I kinda slept on the soft sands. At different spots I suppose. haha! It was so chilling and cool and the wind was mild and perfect. The night couldn't get any better. It was a romantic night. The ambience I mean.. We were just chilling,, The guys were shisha-ing.. Some were singing... Uncle n Usha were playing the guitars... Which they were really good at. And the rest of us ( those who knew the songs) sang along.. Amar was working on the chicken. He grilled the deliciously delicious chicken, and later was helped by the macho Zufar and muscular Haziq. Dang..These guys really know how to grill don't they?! Me? I only helped to pour down the sauce. LOL. :D  And good Lord, Amar was super strong. I mean, is!!!! He pulled the damn heavy log all by himself. And later carried it with Dylan. I only angkat a little bit. HIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIIHIHIHI.. He's like Robinson Crusoe. hahaha.. Especially when he took of his shirt. Funny weyh! But alarming. Miow! LOL LOL LOL LOL! :B

Meanwhile, sexy Kris and Aisya were toasting the marshmallows.. FeeJo was high, sipping the shisha too much ( and later he puked because of that. hahahaahaha) Puteri and Ijlal were laying on the beach (together!haha) staring at the stars and had their educational conversation. *yawn* hahahahahahhahahaa...

Hanie and Nadhirah were circling Nadeem Uncle and Usha.. Singing and chatting.. Syuha went on a stroll along the beach with the burnt hair(my bad) Nasbal, and later sat at the far side of the beach. Ajim Duwei Dylan were chatting.. And Duwei was laughing his ass off over me. Jahat punye Duwei. He said that I'm like a cartoon. JAHAT! 

Did I miss anyone? Nope.. * I hope so* . And we went back around 4 am.. And reached Um around 6 am.. And went straight to Pelita. HAHAHA. I slept through the whole journey.. I slept soundlessly. Thanks to you...Thank you very much :)

So that's about our PD trip.

And now, I'm messed up thinking about my exam results.. I seriously don't know what will I get.. Let's just pray for the best shall we? *sumpahtakotnakmati* I even had a dream, no, no, a nightmare I suppose! That's more like it. huuuuuuu.Let's pray together ok?

Dear Allah, 

Please let my friends and I pass this first semester examination with flying colours.. We have struggled... Work really hard.. and may You grant us with success.. Dear Almighty, please help us to get good results.. Not to flatter ourselves..Neither to be arrogant. But to pay off our hard work.. And make our parents proud of us.. Insyallah we will all succeed.. Amin..

I'm in my UM room right now. Scared to death. I'm all alone. Ouh. Not really alone. I have Mr.totty. Been hugging him since night crawls. Damn creepy weyh this block! MUMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYY1!!!! Nasib Baik ade Mr. Totty. My saviour! My turtle knight! :)

So, that's all from me.. Ouh yeah! I have few other things to blog about. but never mind, in my next post perhaps. :)

Papai people!

How I celebrated my new year. :)

Good morning people!!!! Happy New Year! It's 2012 already! So, what's your new year's resolutions.? Better be good people! hehe..

Well, these are a few of my new year's resolution~

1) I'm gonna be a better servant of Him.

2) I'm gonna stay single for the whole year. (errr....sorry mate I took yours!)

3) I'm gonna enjoy my campus life.

4) I'm not gonna skip class.

5) I'm gonna do notes after each class.

6) I'm gonna study even harder.

So, these are my new year's resolutions! hehehe... :) Care to comment your new year's resolution people? hihi.

By the way, now is study week. Just 3 more days before finals..I'm damn scared right now.. The feeling is not the same I tell you! Foundation is sooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking different! sheeeeshhh! I feel like dying here in UM. sobosbosb. Well people, all I can ask from you is just to pray for my success.. I've done my part I think.. I've been working my ass off.. Only God and my friends here know.. I hope it'll pay off.. With good grades of course! Insyallah ameen!

So, back to the topic, how I celebrated my new year.

As I stated in my previous posts... I'm a nerd. Law faculty is my first home now.. Most of my time I will be snowed under books. So as today. I mean yesterday. Hold on, is it last year? hahaha...Lame joke I know.. ^^ So yeah.. I spent another faculty-day. So, basically, I celebrated my new year at the faculty, pink corner to be more precise. hehe.. And what made it an interesting celebration and of course, an unforgettable one is the fact that we climbed the rooftop! Yup we did! If dekat sekolah dulu, I climbed tangki air, now I panjat bumbung pulak. LOL! So yeah.. We ( me, najwa, hafeez, nasbal, amar, zufar, duwei n a female senior which I do not know her name) We watched the fireworks and were awed by it like little kids. It was beautiful.. Fireworks always make me happy... It feels like watching paintings in the sky.. :) 

So yeah.. after 15 minutes up there, we climbed down.. And duhhh.. Baca buku balik. Nerds right? It's a new year and we just hangout with our books.? You gotta be kidding me... No other words that can describe us best.. Other than NERDS! gahhhh! Tak ada life doe ktorang semua... ^^ Ouh well, Nak finals dah kan.. So yeah..

And here's to you 2012, welcome and treat me nicely ok.. I'm moving forward.. And I want to be a better person.. For myself. Not for anyone else.. 

And no, I'm not fond of going out with guys je. And no, don't go f*** anyone.. I've let it all out to you.. Read me..And it's up to you on what you wanna do.. I think I'll just have a short nap.. Gotta go to pink corner again at 11. Promised to have a study group with my colleagues. Papai people!

Uyaina is a poet. :D

Hello hollow halo yellow shallow fellow cello pillow! haha.. Try to say that fast people! :D
Ok.. I am supposed to study now... But yeah.. My not-so-nerd side of me asked for a break.. Dang tired of studies..books...debates...laws..statutes...cases...blablbablablabla... I don't know why I'm taking up law in the first place..So, don't let me start.. ANYWAYYYYYY.... (haha)

Today is our another buddy-meet session.. My buddies are coolest buddies of all. We have, Im ( the macho, handsome,dropdeadgorgeous fella), we have Kak MIn ( the beautiful, lanky, model-like, Hindustani look hot mama), Azim ( the blur, sleepy eyes, funny, but sometimes an unpredictable person), Kuwa ( our tough palapes, smart, shy shy cat (miow!) haha), Arai ( the skinny but eats a lot monster and super nice), Ika (damn hot weyh! Cute, soft, and most importantly, Matt's. hehehe!), Amar ( no adjectives available ;P) and there's me. I love my buddies so much! Up to the point that though I have a freaking torts test tomorrow, I still wanna hangout with them today.. hehe.. We're planning to watch MI today.. And we're supposed to watch at 11. But yeah.. It's Tom Cruise.. So it's not shocking to see a stretching long line at the cinema. So we end up watching my sugar daddy( Tom Cruise babbyyyyy!) at 4. huuuuuu! I have to re-plan my schedule. So yeah.. I'm gonna start studying at 8 tonight.. Until God knows when.. Most probably I'm gonna sleep again tonight.. God I miss Good night sleeps.. :(

So, what's the motive of this entry again? Ouh yeah.. I wanna post a poem actually.. Only those who have the same thinking as mine will understand to whom I dedicate this poem to .. And what it is about.. :)
So here it goes.

(Sepetember 2011)

I remember the time when we were perfect strangers..

I knew your presence..and you knew mine too..

Only heys and hellos.. And sometimes plain goodbyes..

Little did I know, we're gonna be so close..

(May 2011)

My heart was broken.. Shattered into pieces..

My days were gloomy, murky and vague..

That's when i vowed, never will I again..

The pain was unbearable, what can I say?

(November 2011)

But a wise friend attended my sorrow..

Slapped in my face, shout with disgrace..

You are stupid, stupid and stupid..

I know you're inside, timidly hiding rather than to face..

What's to life if you're sad?

What's to life if you're not living?

What about the people that's peeking on you?

Eager to know, dying to get to know..

Thank you mate, for the brilliant shake..

Though it's a mishmash of jumbled emotions to fake.

Your slap, your shouts, your wise words..

Made me realized what I have missed.

(December 2011)

So here I am..

Trying to cross the line..Reaching to the other side..

I thought I was alone..

Till you came, grab my hand.. And say let's go..

I like it now..

I like it how swift you touched my heart..

I like it how you're afraid of commitments..

I like it cause I know I'm sick of one..

I like it when you're honest..

I like it when you're cold...

I like it when we knew it..

I like it when we hide it from others..

I am a free bird.. Soaring high..

Reaching the glaring sun.. The gallant moon..

I am an agile fish..

Swimming the deepest ocean I seek..Dancing in the water i pick..

So yeah.. that's the end of it...
P/s: this post was supposed to be made semalam semalam..but yeah.. Internet dkt Um nie kelaka.. ^^

I love you, kakak!

Achooo! achoo! ACHOOOOOOOOOOO! I'm not feeling well.. Hari nie tak pergi kelas pon.. I'm just feeling so lethargic.. Maybe it's because of yesterday's program kot.. We played snow! hehe.. My younger brothers and sisters( cousins actually, but i love to call them my brothers n sisters), they were all so thrilled..( Ok.. fine! me too.haha) It was freezing in there! Though I know it's nothing compared to the real winter.. But yeah, IT WAS FUN PEOPLE! hehe.. That was surely my first experience.. And to be sharing it with my family (though Ummi, n my big brothers were not there last night) but, my aunts (hala yah n hala anat) made it seemed like kakak and I are a part of their family.. I just love them so freaking much! :) And ouh yeah, I forgot to mention, we went to I-city je.hahahhaa.. 

Now I would like to talk about my beloved sister.. Saidatul Najla Umaira bt Arshad. Do you know that she's the most wonderful sister in the whole wide world? Yes, she is my one and only sister and I love her to bits! hehe.. I don't know whether or not she reads my un-popular blogt.. But It doesn't matter..

Dear kakak, 

I just wanna say thanks for being my sister.. I know I'm dang annoying( bising2 dkt telinge kakak, Curi pakai baju kakak(kasut jugak), saje2 gedik dkt kakak) and all the ways possible to make you feel irritated. That's how little sisters behave I believe.. hehe! It feels like we're growing up too fast right? I just can't believe you've been proposed by someone.. Where did time go? Do you still remember the time when we used to mandi together? And after that, we'll be playing train-train(because there was only one towel.haha). Do you still remember the time we played ribut melanda? haha.. You were(i mean, are) tiny, and there's me, gigantic and all. haha.. And when I roll.over you, you were like.. 'Yana...cepat laa...rasa nak mati dahhh....!" hahaha.. Good old times eh? Good old times.. And and and, do you still remember how identical we used to be? People always said that we're twins! haha.. And I kinda like it you know! How cool can cool be to have a twin sister?hehe! All our clothes will be identical. Add up with our curly hair.. Fair skin.. Who wouldn't have mistaken us as twins? hihi!

And now...here we are.. In our teen souls.. We're about to enter a whole 'nother phase in life.. We're no longer lil kids.. Though I know I'm still not growing up inside..And kakak, do you know that I'm always jealous of you..? You're so polite.. Soft.. Loveable.. You have beautiful skin and hair.. You're petite.. And you look younger! haha... Now, people will always think that I'm the elder sister.. Which is not fair! But never mind.. I have gotten used to it..(Thank God you're my sister.*clenched fist*haha!). 

Just so you know that  I am so happy for you! And I know you're happy too... They say, eyes do not lie.. And your eyes didn't. I see how you glowed.. Each and everytime our family (especially me and Aizzat) sakat-ing both of you.. Though being bombarded by us, both of you can still smile, laugh along and sucked it all up. haha.. I am very happy for you big sister! And to be honest, I can't wait to be your bridesmaid. You are going to be one BREATHTAKINGLY BEAUTIFUL bride!! And I'm gonna be one head-turning, mind-blowing, hot, bridesmaid!( haha... Don't ask me why my adjectives lagy bnyk than hers. LOL.) hehe.. I love you kakak! And I can't wait for you to get married with Abg Fendy.. Have pretty kids, cherish each and everyday together, and grow old together. I'm praying the best for you big sister! 

And I just wanna tell you how lucky you are.. Having to get married early.. Having to have a very wonderful mother and father in laws, having Ohti Na, Abg Iman, Lala, Boboy, Abg Ehsan, Kak Alia, and Amar as your very own family.. You are one lucky gal do you know that? hehe.. I'm so happy for you.. I wish that you'll have a perfect life ahead.. And no matter what, I'm still gonna be your annoying lil sister.. hehe! I'm just hoping the best for you.. Because I love you kakak! 

And your ex is one stupid guy. Sorry to bring it up here. But, he really doesn't deserve you. He is stupid enough to let go of you.. Very stupid. But, you know, I think there's a reason behind all this. And the reason is, you wouldn't have been in a relationship with Abg Fendy if you're still with him, right? And to be honest, I like Abg Fendy more than him. hehhe! So yes, you do get my blessing! haha! And I'm learning something as well form your life kakak... It doesn't mean that the person you've planned to get married with will be the person you're gonna marry.. I love you kakak!

So this is me, single and happy.. Having a wonderful family, awesome friends, a crush(haha.LOL :P), and the fact that I'm still breathing.. I am so grateful and thankful because God gave me a chance to live.. So that I can experience more about life.. I'm becoming more positive these days.. I don't know what made me, but I'm loving this. Love it!

So, that's all for my entry this time.. It's dedicated to my beloved sister.. And a lil bit touch about myslef... :) Toodles people!

You! Yes you!

*ok tajuk macam tak ade kaitan sangat*

Hello people!It's been ages since the last time updated this blog right? Can you see the spider webs here and there?hehe.. Go away spideys! :) So, how y'all been doing? I hope you're doing just fineeeee~ By the way, I think I'll be updating this blog more often.. I have a reason to do so now.. Though I don't know whether you'll be reading this or not.. But who cares? I'm still gonna 'write'. So yeah.. Naseha Uyaina is back people! LOL

So, time flies so fast isn't it? It feels like I have just entered UM yesterday (Ok, that's too much of a hyperbola. But yeah. Time flies so fast, that's my point). I finally think that I'm able to cope with UM's cruelty, heartless, and murderous environment. I think that I can now breathe right. I can sleep well at night. I'm enjoying myself here. Praise to God!!!

We are like total nerds I tell you! Who studies from 8 pm in the evening up till 7 in the morning? For 3 freaking days? Hell yeah we did. And we only slept for like... 2 hours at noon? Not kidding weyh! And some other days, we will(at least me and two of my friends will) open up the books and swallow each and every words existed. At times (most of the time, actually) we will debate about certain things, about the cases, about the laws, about how to answer the freaking questions. And to my suprise, I really enjoyed it. Pink corner is THE place to study. You can flirt and study at the same time. HAHA.  Kidding. We put our nose on the grindstone and go the extra mile for our exams. And I'm not joking. If Ummi knows what I've been doing here, she would have said, "Bagus nye anak ummi nie.. Ummi bangga dengan Yana.. Regardless of what you'll get for your exams because I know you have studied hard and do your best". And yes ummi.. I'm doing my best here.. Trying to survive.. Scoring.. My Torts lecturer said we did pretty good in our test the other day.. And I've got my first Contracts test result.. Though I' not the highest scorer in my batch, but second best is not that bad is it? Alhamdullilah.. Am struggling and aiming for the best.. Please God help me in this. I wish I can hit the highest score in my next test as well as my final exams.. Ameen..

But still..despite all that, my biggest concern right now is Family Law... You have no idea how hard it is.. It's even harder than Add Maths (Ok fine.. Almost as hard as Add math. Fine. Add Math is harder. ) If you get what I mean? I'm really really worried about this subject. I don't wanna fail and have to repeat this paper.. I really don't want to. God please help me..

So that's all about my studies.And regarding other things.. As I said earlier.. I'm enjoying myself here.. I finally realised that I can live on my own.. You have no idea how it feels like.. I am really really happy! Hope this happiness gonna last forever! Having to know the fact that I'm still in the market. LOL.:D No no no. What I mean is, having to know the fact that there is (or is it are.?) still someone that cares and concerns about diri ini. hahaha... I'm being everyone's friend right now! I mingle around.. Get to know people.. And get to know you and you and you.. Life is not so boring after all! hehe.. 

I believe Um has changed my perspective about life.. About living.. About love.. About friends.. About surviving.. I think God has finally answered my prayers.. And I'm sorry God for not being a good and faithful servant of yours.. I'll improve myself in the future.. I'll let go of my past.. And start anew and fresh. For a better me. And I'm gonna love myself first before I love someone and being loved. That's my promise. 

So...I'm gonna hit the bed now. Shleeeppyyyyyyy! hehe.. Nite2 people!

you.animal.

This is a lion.

This is a cow.

This is a tortoise.

This is a spider.

This is an elephant.

Yana..?

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well,...for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes
locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl
under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But..Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend:You broke up with her
because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s
broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S
what happened..

Hush, hush, dear heart..

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain
I never needed strain
My love for you was strong enough, you should have known
I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spend
I never asked help
I take care of myself
I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me
And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me
Because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush; hush hush
There is no other way I get the final say
Because
I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush hush; hush hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby, hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words
I never needed herds
I never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the I let go
Of everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten,
Broken up, defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong
And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So you listen when I say

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush; hush hush
There is no other way I get the final say
Because
I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush; hush hush
There is no other way I get the final say
Because
I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush hush; hush hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby, hush hush

First I was afraid, I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But I spent oh so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on

Hush Hush; Hush Hush

I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby

Oh no, now I,
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give
And I will survive
I will survive

Hush Hush; Hush Hush

There is no other way I get the final say

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush hush; hush hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby, hush hush

SELF MOTIVATION FOR TODAY

I am strong.. I am going to survive.. I am going to be happy.. I am going to be loved.. I am going to find someone who wants to be with me for who I am.. I am going to find someone who loves me unconditionally. I am going to survive 4 years of law school. I am going to succeed in my studies. I am going to be the best student. I am not gonna have to repeat. I am going to be a legal consultant.. I am positive of myself.. I am determined.. I am not going to trouble myself for anyone no more.. I am going to put me as my top most priority. I am going to study hard. I am going to prove to those stink mouths that they are wrong. I am going to show them that I am good. I am going to prove to myself that I am good.

.cam whore.

Jom Tacing.

Jadi, tajuk nye pon dah berbaur bakal nak banjir.. Tacing tacing.. Macam macam bende yg berlaku lately nie rase nak tacingggggggggggggggg je... Mmg la tgh bendera merah.. Tapi sebelom tuu pon memang asyik nak tacing.. Mungkin memang orang yg 'menacing' aku tuuu yang betol betol buat ak tacing.. Tak pon aku memang sengaje nak menacing nacing kan diri.. Haih... Ok2.. Biar ak story mory dengan engkau orang sume sebab sebab ak tacing menacing ditacing bagai nie..

Pertama sekali..  Aku kan.. Bile time bulan puase.. Tambah tambah lagi bile dah nak raya... Aduhai.. *sebak sebak*  Time time macam nie la teringat kat arwah ayah aku.. And know what? The saddest thing is, I don't even remember aku pernah sambut raya dengan ayah aku.. Sumpah.. Aku tak ingat langsung.. Aku start ingat sambut raya bile dah pindah dok kat kuala kangsar... Raya rumah atok nenek aku kat sini.. Kan best kalau aku ade memori menyambut syawal bersamanya.. Dah macam Ramadhan Terakhir pulak gaya aku nie kan.. Well.. Hope memang nie bukan Ramadhan terakhir laa.. Tapi, aku tak ingat langsung berhari raya dengan ayah aku.. Sebab aku kecik comel lote sangat waktu tuu kot.. Membuat kan ingatan aku tiada untuk memori tersebut.. huhu.. Kau orang semua yang ade ayah nie.. Best la.. Time nie lah nak bodek banyak banyak kan.. Nak tuu laa.. Nak nie laa.. Manja manja gituuuu~ (dah macam lagu gula-gula 'suka gitu' pulak.hahaha!). Aku manja manja ngan ummi aku je.. Tapi best jugak! hehe.. But korang faham kan? (tak sama woh..) No no no.. It's never the same.. Aku rase.. Last memori aku with him adalah sewaktu dia bawak aku stroll on Auckland street.. Kitorang cadang nak jog at that time.. Tapi disebabkan aku nie gedik.. Tak jadi.. Jalan jalan je.. huhu.. Ini serius... Cerita betol nie.. Aku ingat lagy.. Time tu petang.. Dy ngan aku je.. Kakak abang abang ummi aku tak tahu gi mane petang tu.. Tapi aku ingat dy ngan aku je waktu pi jalan jalan ( jalan jalan menggunakan kaki bukan naek kereta bagai). Sweet kan? *bertambah sebak* huhu.. And before before tu semua, aku ingat yang aku penah kene marah dengan dy sebab time tu dy suruh aku letak minyak dekat tulang kering dy tuu.. Sakit kata nye.. Aku pon dengan bersemangat ketuk ketuk botol minyak dekat kaki dy.. Memang lah sakit lagy jawab nye kan... So, kene marah.. LOL (^.^) And and and.............. Aku still ingat time dy bawak abang abang kakak gi swimming.. Aku kene tinggal dengan ummi kat rumah sebab time tuu aku tido *krohhh krohhh* Bangun bangun je.. Aku tros gi cari kakak n abang abang aku.Tengok tak de. Aku pon gi la cari ummi.. Ummi kate baba bawak dyorang semua g swimming kat base. Aku tacing la sebab kene tinggal... huuuu. And aku ingat the next day dy bawak aku pulak ( dengan abang abang n kakak sume la.sebok btol). Konon konon sebab aku x dapat pergi semalam tuu la... hehe.. And aku ingat aku dapat pelampung tangan kaler oren. haha... Aku sukeeeeeeeeeeee sangat pelampung tuu.. Sekarang nie.. Dah tak tahu mane pergi. *sobsob* And aku ingat lagy time duduk kat rumah kerajaan kat lumut dulu.. Kitorang semua tido dalam satu bilik.. Ade 3 katil sambung dekat dekat. So kite orang tido panjang panjang laa.. And i remember malam malam dy mesti duduk atas katil and tengok kitorang semua dah tido ke belom.. Intai intai siape yang belom tido.. I don't know why but I think it's funny and cute jugak. hehe.. Banyak jugak memori with him yang aku ingat.. Sumpah aku ingat lagy bende2 nie semua.. Tapi kenape raya dengan dy je aku tak ingat.Terpulang kau orang nak percaye ke x... And aku still ingat on the day he passed away tuu.. Ade uncle omputih nie, kawan baba dtg naek kerete macam 4wheel drive tu stop depan rumah and amek ummi and kitorang semua.. Time kecik kecik dulu.. Bile orang tanye pasal ayah aku je.. Aku mesti sedih and marah.. Kenape nak tanye. Sebok je.. Aku tak suke orang tanye.. Maybe sebab aku sedih kott.. But then.. As I grew older.. Aku jadi okay okay je pasal bende nie.. Orang tanye pon aku dah boleh senyum and cerite.. :) Aku siap tunjuk keratan akhbar lagy.. kehkeh.. So sambung cerite pasal memori nie.. Aku ingat lagy bile sampai je kat malaysia and balik sungai kecik nak kebumikan ayah aku.. Aku ingat lagy jenazah dy terbaring dekat tengah tengah rumah Tok Wan( atok aku belah ayah).. And time tuu aku pakai baju kurung kaler merah.. Jady ( atok aku belah ummi) datang and dukung aku.. And since then, aku dah anggap Jady macam ayah aku dah.. And Jady pon selalu membangga bangga kan aku depan semua orang kate aku nie " cucu kesayangan dy". huuuu.

Keduanya.. Bile dah teringat dekat arwah.. Aku mula lah sedih gyle.. Teringat dekat dosa dosa yang aku buat.. Banyak nye tak terkire.. Aku tahu dy dalam kubur nie mesti menangis tengok keadaaan aku.. Apa yang aku buat semua.. Mesti dy sedih.. Sebab tuu sekarang nie.. Aku dah nekad dalam hati aku.. Aku tak nak ulang kesilapan and dosa yang sama aku pernah buat.. Aku tak nak dy sedih and terima saham aku.. Ini serius.. Ak nekad dalam diri aku.. 

Ketignya.. Sekarang nie... Aku sedih tengok ummi aku nie.. Dah berape lama hidup sensorang.. Aku kalau boleh memang nak dy kawen je.. Tapi tuu lah.. Dy macam dah xd jodoh dengan orang laen selain ayah aku.. Almost 15 years.. Dy selalu cakap kat aku.. Dy tak de harta lain selain anak anak dy.. Aku nangis time tu jugak kau tahu. Banjir . T_T And dy kate, dy berazam dalam diri dy lepas arwah ayah aku meninggal tuu, dy nak bagi anak anak dy pendidikan.. Macam mane pon.. huhu.. Alhamdulilah.. Abang abang aku dah menjadi.. Sekarang nie tinggal aku ngan kakak je.. Insyallah kitorang pon nak buat dy bangga jugak.. Tapi kan.. Aku ingat lagy.. Time sem 2 ak pressure gyle.. Dy kate kat aku.. " Sem 1 yana boleh pon dapat 4flat.. Sem 2 nie macam mane pon ummi nak jugak yana 4flat sekali lagy. Yana mesti boleh punye laa". Tengok tengok dapat dapat je result sem 2 ade slack.. Tak dapat lah aku 4flat lagy.. Overall CGPA 3.95. Frust nye kau tak kan faham. When you're very close to achieve something that you can even smell it, but you fail, rse dy mcm kene hempap dengan orang gemok je.Aku sedih.. Bukan sebab aku tak bersyukur.. Tapi sebab aku dah let down dy.. Time UPSR aku 4A. PMR aku 8A. SPM aku  7A. Semua aku slack.. Tak de yang membanggakan langsung macam abang aku. So, bile time asasi aku nie bersinar sinar dengan tibe tibe nya, dy sangat lah happy. Tapi tu lah.. Aku cerite kat orang ak sedih tak xdapat 4flat again.. Semua kate aku bongkak. Tak bersyukur bagai. Orang yang aku cerite pon dok kate aku tak bersyukur siap bertweet lagy.. Mane tak tacing weyh? :(    

And yang berikut nya.. Aku sedih dengan orang yang dengan aku.. Dah lama xkontek.. Padahal dah promise best friends forever nie.. Hisyy... Sedih tahu x.? Kontek pon macam xpayah je.. Faham x maksud aku? Aku

pon tak faham maksud aku. Dah la.. Penat pikir pasal kau. Buek! 

So, hari nie aku just nak cer pasal aku banyak tacing.. To the very few people that read this blog, Thank you for your time.. :) And hari nie aku nak buat tulisan kaler turquoise sebab baju raye aku kaler dy ala ala kaler nie.